Roller coaster!!!

This quote really describes my life right now: "Life is like a roller coaster, you get jerked one way and another, and you never know whats around the corner, but you just got to enjoy the ride!"

Seems as the girls get older and more involved with activities, I have less time to spend with them. It's hard to let them go and test their wings. Hoping that what I've taught them and the ideals that their dad and I have instilled in them will carry them in the right direction. Now I know how the mama bird must feel when she has to let her babies leave the nest and fly away :(

Speaking of nests.. we've added a new baby bird to our nest... well she's not really a new bird, she's been around in the form of one of the girls friend. Her life hasn't been the good roller coaster ride..but one of those haunted house, freaky rides,scary, dangerous rides that you can't wait to get off of! We're hoping she can hang in our nest for awhile but a lot depends on many factors that we can't control and we just have to put it in God's hand and trust He helps those who are deciding which ride she gets go back on is the fun roller coaster ride of our house.

I'm so not ready for Christmas. I've bought hardly anything for anyone and I'm not really in the spirit of Christmas. I'm ready for school to be out. It seems kinda crazy around my room these days and I sometimes feel like I'm not making a difference because I've become just a person who herds children around all day and nags at them. My job over winter break is to rejuvenate myself and to read the book Teach like a Champion. I need something to boost me back up. I know I'm a good teacher (and no that's not conceited) but I really feel like I'm spinning my wheels. I know what I need to do and how to get it done.. I just need the willing audience to join me in my adventure. Someone asked me recently how long I've been teaching and how long before I get to retire. I said I'm starting my 22nd year.. and then I got to thinking.. I've been doing this job, this adventure and sometimes this nightmare for a almost half of my life. Some days it feels like I just started and then other days (like today or this week in general) it feels like an eternity and that I'll never be done! Some wise person in the government decided that teachers can retire when they are 67 years young. Since I started teaching when I was 22.. that makes a grand total of 45 years in the field of education. That being said...with 21 years behind me.. I still have 24 more years to go. It scares me just a little!!! One of my OMS teaching buddies who's the same age and time in teaching as me said.. we'll all be living @ the retirement home and they'll just drive us all to school in the little bus and we'll get off with our walkers and canes to go to work....kinda funny and little far fetched but then again not far from the truth either!

Okay Debbie Downer is signing off.. nothing like taking a 6 months leave of absence from blogging and then spill my brain guts on the page :) Wanna see a picture of my girlies???